So here we go again. A fresh start... Admitting my defeat... Feeling liberated by doing so and totally ready to face the world.
It will be a slow start where I will have to find new people to involve myself in. Sure, I do have a friendlist but some of the ones on that list, I have recently hurt for making the wrong choice. So that direction is closed. We stayed on each other's friendlist but more than that will not be possible anymore. Feeling sorry for myself about that? Nope! I made my choice by weighing all pros and cons and came to a conclusion, thinking against all odds that by working hard I would be able to make my relation with Minihai work again. If I made that decission then, and stood behind it then, I should not feel sorry for myself now.
So right now, at times, I'm a bit alone. I have a wonderful friend that I talk a lot with, thing is... we would both love to bottom on the other so besides having the best friend I could wish for, it's not too satisfying on other aspects for either of us.
Don't I have fun then? Sure I do! Actually a lot more than I had the last few months where I could not do anything good anymore in my previous lover's eyes.
So... here we go again. Once more a fresh start, the freshest start I made so far. Back to walking around alone where the only one I have to take into account is me. I might be alone but I don't feel lonely (anymore). I havn't checked out my previous lover's profile in weeks and don't care for the world what she does or does not.
To be continued faster than my previous entry.